Evening readers…or should I say good morning? Its 2:16 AM over here in the City of Lost Angels. And yes, you guessed it I’m working at the Hotel again tonight, but not to worry I have Wed and Thurs off. Now what could I possibly have on my mind at this hour? Well given the fact that for me its about 9 AM for me right now. I have a lot on my mind, but I have a certain thing on my mind that I have to get off my chest. I consider my blog a safe place to vent and to talk about things that I wouldn’t necessarily discuss in public. Mostly because I’m too much of a coward to really go up and tell people how I really feel. And doing so I go to my blog and I speak my mind. It helps me cope with what is really going on in my life. Readers I have fallen in love twice in my life. The first time was for someone that I was willing to change myself and in doing so they took little pieces of me. The second time was unrequited and to me that’s the worst kind of love. And now I am crushing on someone, and I’m really scared to tell them how I feel. It all goes back to the second time that I had fallen for someone. That person before was a friend of mind and when I told them how I felt they turned and looked the other way, and they have never spoken to me since. I got closure from them, but because of what had happened i have always been scared to tell someone how I really feel because of this situation. Now I know that I should just tell them, but for me even if that person doesn’t feel the same, and I know that I’m not being negative because I KNOW THAT I AM A WONDERFUL PERSON INSIDE AND OUT! I don’t care what other people think of me, but what scares me the most is losing this persons friendship. I care from them as a friend and even more, but I’m scared to lose them as a whole. I’m sure plenty of you are or have dealt with the same thing that I am going through at this very moment, but I just don’t know what to do. It’s like when you walk on a ice bank and there is a 50/50 chance that you might break through the ice. Not telling them hurts…so why can’t I just fucking do it? Tell me what you think readers. Catch you next post.
P.s- Adele always knows how to preach.